+ JAIDIVISION +: swinging in the wind

nothing matters anymore, with this sensation.

nothing seems to make sense,

and that's the way that I have strived to be.

completely oblivious from all that surrounds

completely obnoxious yet so painless

and thats the way I have strived to be.

dancing with my stab like movements

sleeping like I was dead

cause thats' the way I have strived to be

making a martyr out of my emotions

dreaming epiphanies on a daily basis

and that's the way that I have strived to be

carelessly caring with all that I have

shutting every door that leads inside of me

cause that's the way that I have strived to be.

making a fool out of my existence

laughing over another bottle of poison

for that's the way I want to be

sedating away the edgy pain

surfing away the fucking mind games

cause that's the way I have to be

pretending I'm swinging from a tree

cut the rope with seconds left

now thats the way I wanna be

not to live to die

but to die to live

forget the crap, and make my own

use all that I have to survive

if it be trickery, if it to be baffeling

if it to be sedating, medicating, imaginating.

every second counts.

+ JAIDIVISION +